Articulating how I’m
feeling at this stage in the process isn’t easy. A big part of me doesn’t want
to communicate at all then the other part of me knows that it’s important, if
nothing else, to let you all know that I’m doing ok. As ever, I very much appreciate
the emails, phone calls, strength and love coming my way. All of that feels
like a very important part of me being able to keep gathering the strength to
get through this. I’m sorry to everyone that has attempted to call, who has
asked to chat or who has wanted to come and visit – from my closest friends and
family to all those wonderful people that I haven’t been in touch with for a
while. I’m just keeping my head down and focusing on getting through this...
which, as you know, is no easy task. Some people like to do this kind of thing
surrounded by people but as most of you can probably see I prefer to just get
on with it and do it quietly. I know that that’s not easy for some of you who
would prefer that I was in touch but I guess that was the reason I have this
blog – to communicate a little bit of my process even though I’m not seeing
most people face-to-face.
The last chemo was
better than the previous one. I didn’t have any reaction whilst I was being
given the infusion and I haven’t been in hospital (yet!) this cycle so things
are looking good. I’m taking longer to recover each cycle, which is a real
challenge and the truth is it’s hard not to get low but I’m managing to keep
afloat and that’s the most important thing. Only one more cycle to go (on the
10th Sept), a 4 or 5 week break after that and then radiotherapy.
That’s about all for
now – just wanted to let you know I’m still pushing on through…big love x
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