Irony or just as the universe intended? We've
landed into the most perfect dream home that we could have ever imagined...kind
of amusing that it's to embark on possibly the most challenging journey of my
life… or is this just how it's meant to be? Little Keepers Cottage - to support
and hold us through all this. As soon as we stepped foot inside it felt like
coming home.
I got up this morning at 3.30am and couldn't
actually stay in bed any longer. All I wanted to do was go downstairs and 'be'
- soaking up the warm, homely vibe of our cottage. I actually can't believe
it's our new home - set up so perfectly by the rest of my family. I sat waiting
patiently for the first light before I could put my wellies on and go and
introduce myself to the sheep. I walked around the paddock smiling, listening
to the sounds of the morning - the birds, the cockerel, the peace in the air.
I'll say it again - I actually can't believe this is our new home. If there's
any place that's going to support and nurture me on my healing journey, this is
it.
So yeah...we've arrived.
My head's shaved - may as well start as it will
continue. You may or may not know that I shaved my head last year so it wasn't
as big a deal for me as it may be for some. I felt like it's nice to do it whilst
I still have the choice and get used to the shaved look with eyebrows and
eyelashes before I go completely bald. Any ideas on rockin' the bald look
gratefully received. Hehe.
...so here I am - no boobs, no hair, but same
me...knowing that I am soon to be embarking on something big, something
profound. But I'm ready as I'll ever be. Always trying to remember that the
fear of suffering, in my experience so far, is harder than the suffering
itself. It’s the projections of what the road ahead might be like that cause
the problems. If I see those projections and fears for what they are and stay
here, present, in this very moment, that’s where life for me is at its easiest.
Right now, right here in this very
moment, life is perfect.
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